ju5sk

sometimes it's not a matter of right or wrong
of the ups and downs
or questions about why
we've been fighting for so long

sometimes it's not about logic
maybe just about having sensibility
to know that im sick
sick and tired of the struggle
the chaos and conflict
of making the subtle hints of emotions
telling u i hate it
telling u sorry
that i'm feeling it
feeling like im running the risk
of causing offense
when really all i want is to make the most of this

but seriously who am i kidding
because u'll never remember
the things i'll never forget
regardless of my effort
the wheels have turned and into motions
things have been set
so pointless the regret
that even neglect has manifested itself
on my list of priority
it's simply a matter of reality
that regardless of the denial
i can never do enough
i will never be enough
and all the while
words are thrown around as if,
well damn,
as if i am the settling factor
as if i really should just be happy that
u ARE settling
and I really should stop meddling
into your affairs with the world
because yea, the reality is
i'll never be your girl

and honestly im at a lost for words
i really can't explain
I really wish the reason is simple
for why we still remain in this
circle of push and pull
it turns the heart i wear on my sleeve
into nothing more
than a nametag for a fool
because in the end.. it's not about logic
i just can't resist the affliction
that this is where i belong
it's really all about the burning conviction
that ur arms molds around me too well
for us to truly
be wrong